My temper is getting from bad to worst. SERIOUSLY. As if the whole world owns mi money. I am fucking pissed off now. Quarrels wif family, everything my sis do wrong they blame it on mi. Wrong doings of my brother they oso blame it on mi. FINE! Ya so wad? I admit tat I am a rotten apple, I influence them wif my bad attitude and behaviour. I am breaking dwn. Literally.. but no one noes. Dun ask mi why, I dunno e cause too. I am tired of living. Seriously. I missed my menses for quite sometime and now, my 2 bloody wisdom tooth is getting on my nerves. Damn pain but I got to put up wif it. Too bad it's the family genes tat is acting. I am showing my fucking attitude to everyone, including my most beloved baby. I get pissed nowadays very easily.. I cry for no reasons. Like now..I dun even noe why the fuck am I sobing for!? I feel so stressed up. Trying hard in my studies but since I gt the 4th C. I give up. I go late for classes like nobody business, skipped sch till now, I can't afford to skipped lessons on my cognitive thinking module. I feel very very STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The angony is tearing mi apart. I get depressed easily. Mabe my depression didnt get better afterall. Sometimes I reflect on myself, and I guessed my parents are right. I am a good for nth. Other den stealing, rebelling, giving them headaches and worries wad else am I capable of? Absolutely nth at all. I hv a stubborn temper, even thou I noe I was in the wrong, I defend myself. I hv high ego so much tat I become so damn stubborn tat almost NO one can tolerate. Guess my baby un be able to take it too. I am just adding to his burden.. he just msg sying tat he thinks tat I'm getting tired of him tat is why I keep showing him attitude. I am not, I am just depressed. Dunwan answer his calls coz I'm crying I dunwan him to worry for mi.. Mabe I should just give up on everything when I feel tat there is a nid to leave.. perhaps..who knows when tis day will come.. haas.


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